A collection of thought on the deeper things of God. And an over all desire to both swim in deeper pools and encourage others to join me.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Rest
For the next five days, I am taking a break. It's not exactly a vacation but it is a break from the same kind of work I do all the time and it is coming at a wonderful time. I have been going hard for weeks. I even dream about the next deadline, the next meeting, the next event. I am ready to stop thinking for just a little bit. I think I lost perspective sometime ago. You know when you find yourself staring at people between your thumb and your forefinger and say, "I am squishing your head, I am squishing your head", you are in trouble.
What I am exceedingly bad about is taking a complete break. I am having a hard time leaving the computer at home. I am going to do so only because there is no room for it with me but I think it will be hard and I am going to miss it tremendously. So I am psyching myself up. By not taking the computer I am limiting my work time to reading and writing some, both of these activities I enjoy and find restful. I am limiting email to that I can respond to by phone and I am forcing myself to interact with the folks I am traveling with, because I will be unable to be in the same room but be lost in cyberspace. I don't know when I last did this. Whenever that was I probably didn't like it.
I have been told for sometime now that I need to be more intentional about rest and renewal. That I am not balanced when it comes to work and leisure. I think perhaps this is a moot point because it assumes that I am capable of balance, but I think I do begin to see that while all work and no play will certainly never make me boring, they do conspire to make me crabby. Crabby is not good. I don't like me when I am crabby. When I start on one of my rants, I really don't like me. I can't seem to stop me but I don't like it. I try never to listen to me. I think this is a safety precaution.
So here is my plan. First, I am leaving the laptop home. Second, I am taking notes and books and some things I need to read for work but I am also taking some goofy stuff. I haven't read just for reading sake in a long time....maybe since the last Harry book came out. Third, I am going to spend some leisure time. I am going with fifteen youth and four adults on a youth retreat. I am sure everyday at some point they can get along just fine without me while I take a walk, or read a book or nap in the shade. I think I will window shop some and visit the resource library and maybe chat with a perfect stranger about nothing in particular. And finally, I am going to enjoy worship. I am going to go worship where I am not responsible for a thing and if something goes wrong, someone else will be in charge of fixing it. I will make note of things I love but mostly I will just worship. I am excited.
I am also having second thoughts. Be brave, don't give in now! I know I can leave the computer behind, I know I can. Wonder if they are sure we don't have room? It's small, you know. Okay, Okay, Okay. No caving, I am standing firm and letting it go. I am taking a break. It will be fine. After this wonderful week, I may even adopt the habit and work less. Nah.
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